Saturday, August 28, 2021

truncated icosahedron

 


[Today I had the privilege of speaking briefly to groups of elementary school soccer players...]  


truncated icosahedron


That is the fancy mathematician’s name for the shape of a soccer ball, with exactly twelve 5-sided pentagons and twenty 6-sided hexagons, so 32 shapes altogether, with each pentagon surrounded by hexagons. There are 60 corners.

Why does that make me think of God?

I am reminded that we experience God in different ways. The Bible describes three of those ways as like a Father, like a Son (Jesus), and like a Spirit (that we can’t see). There are other things in this world that can appear to us in different ways even though they are all the same thing. Maybe you can think of some.

One of my favorite examples is a common kind of atom called carbon. Remember that atoms are so small that we can’t see them, but everything we can touch and see is built from billions and trillions of tiny atoms. Carbon atoms are everywhere in our bodies and the world around us.

What’s cool is that pure carbon atoms can organize in very different ways and appear to us differently, just as God does.

When organized one way, carbon atoms form graphite, like the black tip of a pencil for writing and drawing on paper. 

When organized another way, carbon atoms are crystal clear and form beautiful diamonds that look very different from carbon in the tip of a pencil. 

And not long ago, scientists discovered that carbon atoms can organize in a third way that nobody had ever imagined before – Carbon atoms can form tiny clusters of 60 atoms that are arranged exactly like invisibly small soccer balls – exactly the same arrangement of pentagons and hexagons, but all too small to see. How cool! There have been tiny soccer balls in the universe long before people figured out how to make them! That form of carbon has the funny name “buckminsterfullerene”. I think it is easier to say “soccer ball”. This form of carbon has different properties from graphite and diamond.

But, all three forms are still carbon.
 
When I see a soccer ball, it makes me think about how happy I am that God chooses to show himself to us in beautifully different ways.

8.28.21

Saturday, July 31, 2021

Libertina

 


Earlier this summer I discovered monarch caterpillars on a milkweed plant in our back yard. I was delighted. I sent pictures to the girls. Almost 32 and 28 years old, and 100 miles away, I wanted to share my joy.

It seems like a lifetime ago, but both girls had shared monarch-centric chapters with our family during Middle School. Both had similar science units involving the collection of monarch eggs, rearing the various instar larval stages on milkweed leaves, dutifully weighing droppings and measuring growth to document the development of the brightly-striped animals heading toward spectacular metamorphosis. Our family was intrigued. Something about the miraculous multi-generational annual migration of the species between Mexico and the Upper Midwest remains unbelievable. Something about the transition from caterpillar to beautifully bejeweled green chrysalis, the darkening of the chrysalis, and the emergence of a crumpled adult that pumps fluid into its wings to present itself as a spectacular butterfly – something about these things is inescapably lovely and mysterious.

And yet there is also a hint of tragedy. Monarchs are likely in the process of extinction before our eyes. Having established their life cycles and windward flights over countless millenia, their habitat is fragmented and their environment distorted by herbicides and insecticides. I have often wondered with sorrow how many more generations of human children will rear monarch butterflies in Middle School in the Midwest.

The next day I went to check the monarch larvae in the back yard and all had vanished, likely picked off by birds in spite of what we had always been told was an unpleasant monarch flavor attributable to the consumption only of milkweed leaves.

I found myself strangely saddened.

I let the girls know in a short text.

What followed was a spontaneous call to action. Both daughters expressed their commitment to seek out local stands of milkweed, identify any minuscule monarch eggs on the undersides of leaves, and shepherd the lives of tiny larva in the safety of indoor containers with gathered milkweed leaves. Each girl found a few eggs and tiny larvae nearby and conscripted a friend or a husband to join the mission. Various stages of development were observed and shared by texted photos and video calls. Comparisons were made. Larvae were named. Release plans were discussed.

But it has been a bittersweet reunion with monarchs. The process has too often reminded us that metamorphosis is a complex process, full of risks and opportunities for failure. Few larvae have survived to take their turns in transition. Those that do can find ways to touch us deeply.

That happened yesterday.

My older daughter had documented the growth and development of a monarch caterpillar collected on Independence Day and duly named (without gender confirmation) ‘Libertina.’  Not long ago, having matured on her diet of milkweed leaves, Libertina climbed to the high mesh of her enclosure, quieted herself, and then engaged in the miracle that revealed the pupa within, which hardened to a lovely green chrysalis. 

Patience.

Libertina hatched yesterday. My daughter shared a photo of Libertina hanging with her fully-developed wings unfurled and strong.

I received the photo on my phone while working in my office. My reaction surprised me. I found myself staring at the picture, overcome by a child-like sense of wonder at the beauty of this wonderful insect with its spectacular wings, poised to become a creature of flight in wind and air. I felt the emotion welling up in me. I found myself saying a prayer of thanks for the undeserved gift of sharing this world with living things such as this, carrying stories and complexities beyond beautiful.

Soon it was confirmed that Libertina had lived up to her name – she was a female.

But it was a hard day.

As evening came, word also came that Libertina was not doing well. She was not strong, her legs had not developed properly, she was unable to cling to her mesh.

She fell.

Frantic texts were sent and received. A loving friend helped arrange Libertina near freshly-cut watermelon slices. There was a valiant effort to help Libertina stretch out her tongue to taste the sweetness. There was hope for resuscitation of the beautiful insect with her beautifully open wings.

In the mid-evening word came the Libertina was gone.

She had never flown.

I felt so sad – so strangely sad. I walked alone to our dark back yard and just let myself cry.

So sad.

In my tears I found myself thinking about promises…

…and hope.

I thought about a story from more than 20 centuries ago. A promise. A description of a kind of unimaginable love and power and gentleness.

The Book of Matthew records these familiar yet mysterious words of Jesus –

“Aren’t two sparrows sold for only a penny? But your Father knows when any one of them falls to the ground.”

There is one who knows and loves and cares for all things, somehow.

All things.

I found myself remembering the one dream I have ever been given where I sensed that I was experiencing the other side – the promised place of restoration and timelessness. I have written about it in this collection.

What was perhaps most poignant about that special and fleeting dream was that my glimpse of heaven was a scene filled with evidence of living things.

Could it be that there is a place of restoration for all that has ever been created – all that will ever be created?

A place of celebration and reunion and forgiveness and freedom and completion?

A place where I will see Libertina flying high on a warm breeze…forever?

Sunday, March 7, 2021

Questions and answers about cancer

 

 

A friend of mine recently posed some important and insightful questions about cancer. 

I provided answers as a molecular biologist and cancer patient, seeking to be clear and as simple as possible.

I hope these good questions and my answers might be helpful, especially to new cancer patients and their family members.

Remember – these answers are not meant to substitute for the advice of a skilled medical doctor familiar with a particular patient.

 

    1    What is cancer and why does it happen?
 
“Cancer “ describes illnesses where one of the trillions of cells in the body becomes confused and starts to divide out of control. Each cell has a very complicated set of machinery, and the main set of instructions in the cell DNA has more than 20,000 different gene “recipes” or instructions for building all the tiny machines in the cell. We inherit one set of instructions from mom and a second set from dad. The two sets are slightly different, which is why mom and dad looked different from each other and why we look different from each of them. Errors can occur in these gene recipes. Some errors are inherited from our parents, but new errors in the DNA recipes can occur by accident or because of certain exposures in our environment (like cigarette smoke or sunlight) that damage the gene recipes in DNA. Some gene recipe errors confuse cells into dividing to form new cells. Cell division is a very good thing when we are growing up, but uncontrolled cell division can kill us if the growing cells (a “tumor”) spread and damage the rest of the body. Improper cell division that is slow and does not spread is called “benign.” A wart is a kind of uncontrolled cell division that is benign and can be cured by removal. On the other hand, “cancer” refers to uncontrolled dividing cells that spread within the body and damage it. “Malignant cancer” refers to cancer that is in that process of spreading, where control is harder. The weird thing about cancer is that it is part of our own body growing out of control. That makes it a hard problem to solve compared to an infection by a germ, because many treatments that kill the cancer have the potential to damage our normal cells too.
 
    2    How many different types of cancers are there?
 
Every different kind of human cell has the potential to become confused and grow out of control. Because there are hundreds of different kinds of cells in the body, there are literally hundreds of different kinds of cancer, depending on what kind of cell is growing out of control. Even more common cancers like breast cancer and colon cancer and ovarian cancer and lung cancer actually occur in different types because there are more than one kind of cell in each of these organs. Cancers are usually named for the kind of cell that is confused, and sometimes for the specific source of the confusion. For example, there are many different kinds of blood cancers including lymphomas and leukemias because there are many different kinds of cells in the blood. Because cells are so complicated, there are many different kinds of errors in the gene recipes that might confuse them. GIST (gastrointestinal stromal tumor) is caused when one of a special kind of cell called the “interstitial cell of Cajal” becomes confused and grows out of control. Even for GIST, there are different kinds of gene recipe mistakes that can confuse these cells into growing out of control. Depending on the source of the confusion, different treatments may be indicated. A common analogy is to think of a tiny, invisibly small cell as if it were a tiny car that needs to drive safely. Imagine all the mistakes in a car that could make it unsafe. Imagine if an error is present in the machinery of the brakes so the car can’t stop, or if the gas pedal is broken and stays pressed all the time. That is like cancer. Many other errors might simply prevent the car from running, and those errors would not cause cancer.
 
 
    3    What does it mean when someone is predisposed to cancer? Why does the risk factor increase?

 
Errors in the 20,000 gene recipes in the DNA of each cell can arise in different ways. Some errors are pure accidents of DNA copying by the cell machinery. Some errors are caused by our environment, like cigarette smoke or sunlight or radon gas from the earth. Those we can work to avoid by our behavior (stop smoking, wear sunscreen, get our homes checked for radon gas if we live in a part of the country where that is an issue). Some gene recipe errors are inherited from mom or dad. Each parent gives us one complete set of 20,000 gene instructions when we are formed from their single egg and sperm. That way we have two copies of each recipe, and the two versions (spellings of the recipe) from mom and dad are usually slightly different. This is a good thing, and it makes life interesting. Usually if there is a problem with one recipe inherited from one parent, the other copy of the recipe acts like a back-up! Very cool! Sometimes, however, both versions of a recipe happen to have errors, so neither can be a good back-up for the other. In other cases, the one good recipe in a cell can be damaged or lost, and then the only remaining recipes is a broken one. Now that cell has no good copy of the proper recipe and it can become confused. Some people carry damaged recipes that they have inherited. Their cells are still fine with the back-up, but the person has a cancer risk because if the remaining good recipe in a cell is accidentally lost or damaged, there is no remaining back-up and the confused cell starts to divide out of control. It is very important to remember that inherited cancer risk is nobody’s fault. It is also important to know that doctors are now better and better at checking our DNA (from a small blood sample or even cheek cells work fine for this since every cell in the body has the same collection of all the gene recipes) to look for evidence of which gene spelling variations we inherited. Doctors now know some of the most common problems. If we carry one of these, there is a chance that a cell in our body could lose the remaining good copy of the recipe and cancer could start. If we are one of these carriers, doctors may suggest that we are checked for cancer more often, so it might be caught early before it spreads. This really does save lives!
 
 
    4    What if someone has no known family history of cancer yet they still develop cancer….why does this occur?
 
Since cancer is about cells being confused by damaged gene recipes, that damage can happen different ways. I might inherit one damaged recipe that can cause problems with no other damage. More often, I might inherit a damaged recipe that causes a problem only if the remaining undamaged recipe is damaged or lost in some cell during my life. However, gene recipes can be damaged even when only good and correct copies had been inherited. This is because the process of copying all 20,000 gene recipes has to happen every time a cell divides. The process is very complicated. Luckily, cells are extremely careful about this and the trillions of cells in the body seldom make errors. However, with so many cells, and so much gene copying, some mistakes are going to happen. If the error is in the wrong place and wrong time, the cell is confused and begins to grow out of control…the first step of cancer even when neither mom nor dad passed along any errors. As we have mentioned, some gene errors are purely random accidents where nothing could be done to prevent them. However, we know that common lifestyle choices can cause gene errors and these errors can be reduced by changing behavior. The two most obvious cases are smoking and sun exposure.
 
 
    5    How does chemotherapy differ from targeted drug therapy?
 
“Chemotherapy” really just means “therapy with a chemical.” Because all drugs are really kinds of chemicals, any therapy with a drug is a kind of chemotherapy. However, cancer doctors often speak about chemotherapy as meaning the traditional approach to slow down cancer with drugs that kill cancer cells faster than they kill normal cells. This approach has saved millions of lives, so chemotherapy can be very successful. Many chemotherapies have been improved to have fewer side effects and problems. These improvements are always continuing. Doctors now often refer to “targeted drug therapies” to describe newer drugs that are designed based in the particular confusion in a tumor cell. Rather than just trying to kill the cell because it is dividing out of control, the drug is designed to attack the particular problem. Here is an analogy. Let’s say you are a police department trying to save lives by preventing criminals from speeding over 75 miles per hour as they flee from crime scenes. This might be a good idea. How to do it? One way is to use police helicopters and radar systems to identify every single vehicle (car, truck, bus, train) going faster than 75 mile per hour and assume it is a criminal fleeing a crime and shoot out their tires to get them to stop. If we had enough police and technology, this would indeed solve the problem of criminals speeding away from crime scenes. Good, right? But, what would be the unintended side effects? We might destroy all innocent emergency vehicles driving fast for other good reasons, and trains that are supposed to go fast, and trucks on interstate highways…there are lots of unintended consequences to that approach. This is a little bit like a general chemotherapy. It may be necessary to save life, but it is a “generic” solution to the problem, with side effects. Doctors hope that targeted therapies might be smarter…like only chasing vehicles with license numbers associated with a crime scene, and maybe turning off their engines by remote control technologies rather than shooting their tires. Seem like science fiction? Hopefully more and more cancer drugs will work this way in the future. This is how Gleevec works for certain kinds of GIST!
 
 
    6    Why are some cancers harder to treat than others?
 
Cancer cells are cells growing out of control because they have gene errors that cause them to be confused. Different gene errors cause different kinds of confusion. Cells confused so badly that they grow and divide very fast can be very hard to treat. On the other hand some slow cancers are also tricky because the confused cells aren’t that different from normal cells. Imagine in the previous analogy if the criminals escaping from crime scenes are only driving at 69 miles per hour rather than 75? Will we even be able to distinguish those getaway cars from normal drivers? [OK, having lived in Los Angeles, I know these particular speed numbers wouldn't make sense in California!] Another very important thing to understand about cancer cells is that they change. The original confused gene recipe that started a cancer cell growing out of control is passed to the new cancer cells every time that cell divides. BUT, the many, many, many dividing cells also have new chances for making copying mistakes of their own. That means that new gene recipe errors can crop up in the descendants of the original cells. Cancer tumors can have billions and billions of cells, so, unfortunately, many new chances for new gene recipe errors to occur by accident. Every new error has a chance of confusing cells in new ways. If there are a mixture of cancer cells with different errors starting to live together in the tumor, if a new drug is introduced by a doctor, some cells may respond to the drug and die, as desired. However, some of the cells could have gene recipe errors that cause them not to die in the presence of the drug. These cells will keep dividing and the tumor will keep growing because the surviving cells take over. It is important to know that the tumor isn’t “trying” to escape the drug therapy. The tumor doesn’t know anything about drugs – it is just a confused part of your own body. It is just that with so many cells, there will always be some variations with different gene recipe errors, and these different cells may be able to grow when a drug stops all the others. This idea that tumors have different cells with ever-changing gene recipe mistakes means that tumors evolve (a perfect example of the theory of evolution with survival of the fastest-growing cells).
 
 
    7    What is the difference between chronic illness vs acute illness?
 
A chronic illness lasts a long time and may persist for the entire life of the patient, being managed perhaps without being cured. Diabetes is a good example. Though, sadly, too many people still die from diabetes and its complications, more and more get care so they can manage their diabetes without it ever being cured. An acute illness refers to an illness that lasts a short time and is either cured or kills the patient. More and more acute illnesses can be treated and cured by modern medicine, so the patient completely recovers and is like new again. We all wish that cancers can be acute illnesses where patients are completely cured after a short time and go back to living normally. I actually have a different dream. I would like to dream that more cancers will be chronic illnesses like diabetes, so that with good drugs and strategies we learn to live with our cancer rather than die from it. I have been blessed to have lived with my SDHB-deficient familial paraganglioma cancer for more than 45 years. Sometimes it has not been a picnic, but it most of the time I don’t need to think about my cancer at all. It is also very important to say something else at this point: from the moment we are conceived, we each are on a path toward death. That is what it means to be a human. It is important to embrace that reality rather than denying it. You might say that our purpose in life is to come to terms with how to make this short life beautiful, and to consider how to learn if there is more beyond this time and space.
 
 
    8    What can we hope to see from cancer research and development in the next 25 years? 50 years?

 
The very best things we can learn to do are to 1) prevent more cancers from even starting, and 2) learn to catch more and more cancers early so they are small, have not spread, and can be cured by a small operation to remove the confused cells. We could save a massive amount of cancer suffering very quickly if we could simply convince people to stop smoking and to use sunscreen. Those two steps alone would save thousands of lives and billions of dollars every year. No fancy drugs or new kinds of surgery is required for either. Other cancers can be prevented by simply eating and drinking moderately. So prevention is the simplest, cheapest, and best solution for the future. Because the gene recipes in cells can be damaged throughout our lives, the older we are, the greater the chance of confused cells. There is no escaping that. This is why the next area for improvement is detecting cancer early so it can be cured. Simple life-saving examples are skin checks, breast self-exams, pap smears, and colonoscopies to check the lower intestines for small tumors. Removing such small tumors can completely cure them, whereas larger colon tumors can spread and kill. In the future we will learn to do more and cheaper tests (like the new colon cancer tests that can be done by collecting a stool sample at home and mailing it in to the lab). Over the coming decades I think the biggest reduction of cancer suffering will therefore come from better prevention and better early detection. Because cancer will also always be a disease of aging, no matter how much prevention or early detection, we will need to keep understanding gene recipes and all the ways they can be damaged and all the kinds of cell confusion that can result. That will be a lot of work because many of the 20,000 gene recipes can cause different kinds of confusion if damaged in different ways. We molecular biologists will be busy, and plenty of government funding will be needed for years to come to help develop new smarter and safer drugs that work specially for certain kinds of cancer. A goal will be to find solutions that are less expensive and more accessible as well. Some solutions will be about helping the body help fight off the cancer itself. Some solutions will involve learning about the details of the cell confusion so we can imagine ways to take advantage of it. My own dream is that some cancers will turn out to result from unusual kinds of confusion that may reveal interesting and unusual kinds of drug treatments that are safe and inexpensive!


3.7.21

Thursday, October 15, 2020

belief

 


Many Christian churches feel the need to publish statements of faith, clarifying beliefs held in common. Such documents have both advantages and disadvantages. I often find them stuffy, full of unfamiliar code words, jargon, and obstacles to understanding. Honestly, I also often find these statements to go beyond what I have found to be the essentials of Christianity, and to claim things about the Bible that the Bible does not claim about itself. 

What would I write if I could rephrase a statement of faith? 

Below I show a typical example statement in italics and follow each element with my own version in yellow.

How about you – what would you write?

The Word of God

We believe the Bible is the Word of God, fully inspired and without error in the original manuscripts, written under the inspiration of the Holy Spirit, and that it has supreme authority in all matters of faith and conduct.

 

The Bible

We believe that the fascinating scrapbook collection of ancient documents called the Bible is worth studying because it is unique in the light it sheds on God’s purposes and character.

 

The Trinity

We believe there is one living and true God, eternally existing in three persons, that these are equal in every divine perfection, and that they execute distinct but harmonious offices in the work of creation, providence, and redemption.

 

The Trinity

We believe that the God revealed in the Bible is mysterious, at once a single being but revealed in the following three ways, conveying coexistence and relationship.

 

God the Father 

We believe in God the Father, an infinite, personal spirit, perfect in holiness, wisdom, power, and love. We believe that He concerns Himself mercifully in the affairs of people, He hears and answers prayer, and He saves from sin and death all who come to Him through Jesus Christ. 

 

God the Father

We believe in God the Father as an all-powerful, personal, perfect being, who exists outside of time yet delights to engage time in a story of rescue, having provided a sacrifice to restore relationship with the human race otherwise separated from God by pride and independence. This God rescues all who accept the sacrifice offered, not because those who accept are good, but because God is good.

 

Jesus Christ

We believe in Jesus Christ, God’s only begotten Son, conceived by the Holy Spirit. We believe in His virgin birth, sinless life, miracles, and teachings. We believe in His substitutionary atoning death, bodily resurrection, and ascension into heaven, perpetual intercession for His people, and personal visible return to Earth.

 

Jesus Christ

We believe in Jesus Christ as the unique God-human, who was born miraculously without a human father, who lived and taught so as to reveal God’s character, and who willingly allowed himself to be killed and miraculously resurrected to life as the ultimate self-sacrifice, sufficient to pay the debt of imperfection accumulated by every human who will ever live.

 

The Holy Spirit

We believe in the Holy Spirit, who came forth from the Father and Son to convict the world of sin, righteousness, and judgment, and to regenerate, sanctify, and empower all who believe in Jesus Christ. We believe the Holy Spirit indwells every believer in Christ, and He is an abiding helper, teacher, and guide.

 

The Holy Spirit

We believe in the Holy Spirit, the tangible and personal presence of God interacting with people to overcome pride, motivating acceptance of God’s rescuing sacrifice, and residing lovingly in rescued lives.

 

Regeneration

We believe all are sinners by nature and by choice, and are therefore, under condemnation. We believe those who repent of their sins and trust in Jesus Christ as Savior are regenerated by the Holy Spirit.

 

New life

We believe that intrinsic human selfishness and pride separate each of us from God, necessitating a rescuing sacrifice offered by God to us, though we are undeserving. A new life, beginning now and lasting into the timelessness beyond death, comes by belief that God’s own sacrifice through the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ accomplishes this rescue.

 

The Church

We believe in the universal church, a living spiritual body of which Christ is the head and all regenerated persons are members. We believe in the local church, consisting of a company of believers in Jesus Christ, baptized on a credible profession of faith, and associated for worship, work, and fellowship. We believe God has laid upon the members of the local church the primary task of giving the Gospel of Jesus Christ to a lost world.

 

The Church

We believe that all who have been rescued constitute a global church of believers, living in gratitude for God’s grace. Local groups of believers have the opportunity to organize to explain the availability of God’s rescue and to display Christ-like selflessness in their mutual interactions and in their service to others.

 

Christian Conduct

We believe all Christians should live for the glory of God and the wellbeing of others, their conduct should be blameless before the world, they should be faithful stewards of their possessions, and they should seek to realize for themselves and others the full stature of maturity in Christ.

 

Christian conduct

We believe that the purpose of the Christian life is to exemplify gratitude, imitating Jesus Christ, living in an attractive manner, and influencing the whole earth for good.

 

The last things

We believe in the personal and visible return of the Lord Jesus Christ to earth and the establishment of His Kingdom. We believe in the resurrection of the body, the final judgment, the eternal happiness of the righteous, and the endless suffering of the wicked.

 

The end of time

We believe that, just as there was a beginning to time, there will be an end to time for the human race. Beyond that singularity, we believe that Jesus Christ will again make himself known, consciousness will continue for all who have ever lived, and we rely only on grace for the hope of undeserved joy in eternal timelessness with God.

 

The Ordinances

We believe our Lord Jesus Christ has committed two ordinances to the local church: baptism and the Lord’s Supper. We believe Christian baptism is the immersion of a believer in water into the name of the triune God. We believe the Lord’s Supper was instituted by Christ for commemoration of His death. We believe these two ordinances should be observed and administered until the return of the Lord Jesus Christ.

 

Symbolic ceremonies

We believe that Jesus Christ urged his followers to participate in two special symbolic ceremonies – baptism in water as evidence of acceptance of the sacrifice of Jesus, and eating communion food together to remember Jesus’ last meal with his closest followers.

 

10.15.20 

distraction

 

 

One of my former students is returning to my institution for a medical fellowship in pain management. Such trainees are called "pain fellows." Upon learning of this exciting career development, I sent the following note and memory...

"I may have shared with you during your years in my lab that it was a pain fellow who made a big impact on my life during my first year at Mayo in 1995-1996. As you will recall, though I was asymptomatic, my Mayo employment physical revealed the recurrence of retroperitoneal paraganglioma and bone metastases in my skull and pelvis. We were terrified, of course. After skull radiation in the fall on 1995, I had a complex open abdominal operation in the early spring of 1996. I ended up in the hospital for more than three weeks due to adhesions and the need for a second operation. I lost a ton of weight. It was a frustrating and discouraging and scary experience.

The bright spot was a pain fellow who got to know me at Methodist Hospital during those long weeks. I wish I remembered his name. As I was not recovering after the first surgery and feeling very sorry for myself, he asked me about my career and why I felt so frustrated and hopeless. I pointed out the window of my hospital room toward the Guggenheim Building a few blocks away and said that my lab was there, and my students, and my science career, and I missed them. He asked me why I wasn’t still working. I looked at him blankly, me with my IV pole and catheter and NG tube and huge surgical incision.
 
He told me to get back to work.
 
What he meant was that I should start spending time again with my students and thinking about my projects and stop sitting in a puddle of self-pity focused on my pain and fear. Of course, what he really was prescribing was distraction. I had learned about the power of distraction back in Lamaze class, but had not really understood. The pain fellow told me to get out of my hospital room and meet with my PhD students (Nicole had just joined my lab at the time) in the Lips Atrium, in my wheelchair, with a robe, IV pole, NG tube, urine bag, and as much stamina as I could muster, and talk about their experiments and next steps.

So I started doing it each day. Laura or a nurse would help or I would stagger down on my own, and the students would come over at assigned times and we would meet in the atrium. I’m sure I looked absolutely tragic. My students were very good sports about it. The experience was so therapeutic because it distracted me from my self-pity and reminded me of my career and my love for my students.

No pain meds.
No prescriptions.
A kick in the butt to remind me that being in the hospital should not define me as a patient.
 
That was 25 years ago. This coming Sunday is the two-year anniversary of a 7-hour open abdominal surgery for resection of a section of small bowel due to obstruction following multiple episodes of radiation and the prior surgeries. The 12 hospital nights were no picnic, but I found myself remembering that counsel of a pain fellow 23 years earlier, who taught me not to define myself as a patient, but as a man of faith, husband, father, and molecular biologist who just happened to be in the hospital. I even arranged for my whole lab group to come over to a conference room at St Marys for a group meeting while I was there. Fortunately I had my NG tube removed earlier that morning (and I had a shower).

So pain fellows can change lives, even without drugs.
 
You’ll be a great one."


10.15.20

Sunday, September 6, 2020

comparison

 

 


My institution initiated a new short course for 200+ first- and second-year MD and MD-PhD students across campuses in two states. The course was actually requested by the students. The theme was pressingly relevant – racism and race relations.

Interestingly, the organizers strategically created a 2-hour panel discussion for the first day of the online class. The topic? Comparative religion. The implied message is important – religion and faith tradition are often key parts of culture, and differences, lack of knowledge, and misunderstandings can easily become triggers for division, mistrust, fear, and bias. In the context of the healthcare system where these future doctors and scientists will serve, understanding religion and faith tradition may be crucial for building trust and effective communication with patients and colleagues, allowing shared decision-making and healing.

The panel blended laypeople and professional faith leaders – a hospital chaplain who serves all seeking spiritual support, a Catholic priest, a reformed Jew, a Muslim, a Sikh, a Hindu. I had the great privilege to speak as a non-denominational Christian believer.

After introduction of the panelists, each was invited to briefly introduce their faith tradition with up to four key descriptors.

Here are the four words I chose.

Emmanuel. This is a Hebrew word. It means, simply, “God with us.” Christianity shares with Judaism and Islam the story of Abraham, a Bible character whose personal encounter with a personal God is set perhaps 4,000 years ago. While the three great Abrahamic religions of the world spring from the story of this encounter between God and man, only Christianity recognizes that God himself returns to live with us and to die for us. Jesus Christ is Emmanuel – God with us. No other faith tradition is based on such a claim, or such a gift.

Rescue. The Christian faith recognizes that God has created this universe, and perhaps a multitude of other universes, for purposes that we cannot know. However, in the infinitesimal corner of this universe where the human story is being told, God’s purpose from the very start has been a rescue. God initiated the story of a world that would need a rescue because it is in rescue that we meet him and understand him. Christianity is the ultimate rescue story.

Separation. God is a rescuer and his rescue solves the problem caused by my behavior. I constantly and consistently fall short of my own ethical and moral goals for myself, let alone external standards. I feel guilty about it. My failures separate me from God because I recognize my undeserving imperfection. I struggle to be lovable, but fail. It is this fundamental separation, built into humanity, that is addressed by the rescue.

Done. Christianity is different from other world religions and faith traditions. Most are spelled “DO.” What must the adherent DO to improve or to achieve enlightenment or to be pleasing to God?  Christianity is not spelled “DO.” It is spelled “DONE.” I have learned that there is nothing that I can do to make myself worthy of God’s love. He loves me not because I am good, but because he is good. Stunningly, in the Christian story it is the hero who dies for the villain. Jesus allows himself to be killed as an innocent sacrifice, once for all, sufficient to rescue every human who has ever lived, and every human who will ever live. All of us. I don’t deserve it. Neither do you. We cannot do anything to earn it. There is nothing we can do to make our God love us any more than he already does. The gift has already been offered. The work is done. Jesus did it. To the Christian, the purposes of life are to accept the undeserved gift of Jesus’ sacrifice, and to live motivated by gratitude, both now and forever in timelessness.

 

9.6.20

Sunday, August 2, 2020

100 billion



In 2017, the Australian Christian music ministry Hillsong United released a worship song titled So Will I (100 Billion X). The lyrics and music were written by Joel Houston Benjamin Hastings, and Michael Fatkin (CCLI: 7084123).

I’ve been studying the song as we prepare to use it in a worship service. I want to thank the three writers and composers for this piece. It is not a typical modern worship song for several reasons. For one thing, the song has many complex lyrics, making it more of a performance song than a participation song, and that is fine.

Another reason I find the song to be inspiring is its poetry. Hillsong United takes criticism from some conservative quarters of Christianity for creating worship songs that are poetic, not explicitly referencing traditional Christian words. This is not always the case for Hillsong United, but songs like Touch The Sky (written by Dylan Thomas, Joel Houston, and Michael Chislett) never include the words “God,” “Jesus,” “Lord,” or any terminology or insider Christian language. Some find this threatening.

I think this fear and criticism come from a misunderstanding of the crucial value of the art of poetry in human expression. Poetic words are powerful because they avoid directness and speak tangentially to a topic, inspiring a re-examination of meaning. Criticism of poetic Christian worship lyrics is ironic, because the biblical collection of ancient Jewish lyrics (the Psalms) is filled with poetry. 

I have often distinguished two very general categories of Christian worship songs – those that are poetic and those that are based on “doctrine set to music.” Traditional and modern hymns are in the latter category, and they serve important purposes, as do all statements of doctrine in worship.

But.

Christian worship expression need not be limited to “doctrine set to music,” just as it need not be limited to the dimension of sound. The other dimensions of human sensory experience amplify our ability to express ourselves and be changed through worship, just as poetry leads where explicit doctrinal statements cannot.

I love that.

As a scientist, I want to celebrate briefly some of the poetry in So Will I (100 Billion X). I add [my notes of commentary] among the lyrics reproduced below. The most obvious “hook” in these lyrics is “hundred billion” so I have highlighted it in the lyrics and will note below why this number carries special significance to me. I don’t know if the lyricists chose this number for any of these reasons, or if it just sounded like a big number. It doesn’t matter.

That’s the beauty of poetry.



God of creation
There at the start
Before the beginning of time
With no point of reference
You spoke to the dark
And fleshed out the wonder of light

[The preceding stanza is such a beautiful and poetic way to restate the biblical creation narrative, summarized biblically in the sentence translated “Let there be light.”]

And as you speak
A hundred billion galaxies are born

[Some scientific commentary about “a hundred billion.” In a VERY general estimate (probably within a factor of ten), the universe has 100 billion (100,000,000,000) galaxies, and each galaxy has more than 100 billion (100,000,000,000) stars. In case you are counting, that means the number of stars in the universe is more than ten sextillion (10,000,000,000,000,000,000,000) stars. The echoes of 100 billion are beautiful…but also relevant. I will note, as did cosmologists Carl Sagan and Neil deGrasse Tyson, that incomprehensibly big numbers are not limited to the “big” of this universe, but also to the “small.” For example, there are ten times more molecules in an object the size of the human eye than there are stars in the universe.]

In the vapor of your breath the planets form
If the stars were made to worship so will I
I can see your heart in everything you’ve made
Every burning star
A signal fire of grace
If creation sings your praises so will I

God of your promise
You don’t speak in vain
No syllable empty or void
For once you have spoken
All nature and science
Follow the sound of your voice

And as you speak
A hundred billion creatures catch your breath
Evolving in pursuit of what you said

[I love that in their poetry, the lyricists chose not to shy away from the word “evolving” as a present participle. This acknowledges the evidence that God is creating through evolution. They celebrate this in the poetry. Beautiful.  There need not be anything threatening here. Just truth expressed well in poetry.]

If it all reveals your nature so will I
I can see your heart in everything you say
Every painted sky
A canvas of your grace
If creation still obeys you so will I

If the stars were made to worship so will I
If the mountains bow in reverence so will I
If the oceans roar your greatness so will I
For if everything exists to lift you high so will I
If the wind goes where you send it so will I
If the rocks cry out in silence so will I
If the sum of all our praises still falls shy
Then we’ll sing again a hundred billion times

[I find the preceding bridge stanza to be especially beautiful]

God of salvation
You chased down my heart
Through all of my failure and pride
On a hill you created
The light of the world
Abandoned in darkness to die

And as you speak
A hundred billion failures disappear

[This is the most poignant and remarkable lyric in the song. Some might find it controversial. In round numbers the total number of humans that have ever lived on this planet so far is a bit more than 100 billion. Christ’s death on the cross paid for all of them (“a hundred billion failures disappear”) and paid for every human who will yet live, for that matter. Christ’s death didn’t pay only for those who will accept him in this life…it paid for every human who will ever live. This echoes my aspiration that God’s grace will prove irresistible beyond the fullness of time so that one day every knee will bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord.]

Where you lost your life so I could find it here
If you left the grave behind you so will I

[This was the climactic “so will I” of the song]

I can see your heart in everything you’ve done
Every part designed in a work of art called love
If you gladly chose surrender so will I

[a remarkable lyric]

I can see your heart
Eight billion different ways

[The lyricists get our attention by shifting one time from 100 billion to 8 billion. There are between 7 and 8 billion humans alive on this planet now.]

Every precious one
A child you died to save
If you gave your life to love them so will I

Like you would again a hundred billion times

[This lyric reminds me that the redemptive payment afforded by Christ’s death and resurrection echoes from the beginning to the end, sufficient to rescue every human soul that will ever exist.]

But what measure could amount to your desire
You’re the one who never leaves the one behind



So this is my shout-out to Houston, Hastings, and Fatkin for penning So Will I (100 Billion X) in 2017. The scope of the song is audacious, approaching the unimaginable power and love of God through poetry, while embodying the recognition that this God is personal and lets each individual life become a “so will I” in the ultimate epic love story.

8.2.20

Sunday, March 15, 2020

selfishness


March of 2020 will be remembered as the month that the world changed because of the combination of the invisibly small Coronavirus responsible for COVID-19, and the pervasive global communication that allowed both insight and fear to escalate at rates unimaginable by prior generations. Things changed within just a few days.

I’ve been reflecting on viruses. As a molecular biologist, I have found viruses to be fascinating for many reasons, but three of them have been on my mind lately. 

Viruses are the ultimate selfish idea. All viruses share in common their parasitic character and their very simple demand of their host:  “MAKE COPIES OF ME!” That is the sole purpose of the virus. They are unashamed examples of the ultimate reality of evolution – the imperative that is actually the driver for all living things – we are selected for the ability to leave more copies of ourselves than our competitors. For those of us who see God’s creative hand at work in this brutality called “survival of the fittest,” the virus is an unavoidable and natural side-effect of this principle – anything capable of being copied can thrive in this game, even if it has degenerated to the point where it literally has no other purpose except just being copied. What distinguishes viruses is that they don’t even pretend to have a higher purpose. They are open about their pure selfishness. “MAKE COPIES OF ME!” That's it. And viruses are even more audacious – they don’t even have the machinery to execute this selfish task on other own – they cleverly demand that the process be done by their hosts, and they fool their hosts, at least for awhile, into doing their bidding. On reflection we realize that viruses aren’t really foreign at all. They are made by their hosts and they are made of their hosts. They are really just ideas, genetic ideas, wrapped in little surprise packages, capable of harassing a host cell for a little while. Their message to the host? “MAKE COPIES OF ME!”  Pretty simple. Though it can be tragically deadly, I find this pure selfishness to be kind of enchanting because of its lack of pretense. God has used this same principle to bring about all the creation of all the mysterious and stunning species on our planet, including countless species that have come and gone before humans ever took their turn making so many copies of ourselves that we are threatening the survival of our own host. In fact, I sometimes wonder if humans are just a little too much like viruses, fooling the earth with our own selfish message “MAKE COPIES OF ME!”

Viruses are simple, small, and clever. Some viruses, like this latest Coronavirus, are especially successful at jumping from one host to another. They are immediately selfish and immediately demanding, and the strategy works for awhile before their version of the “MAKE COPIES OF ME” idea goes extinct. But I think one of the most intriguing things about some viruses that are smarter than this Coronavirus is their guile. These other clever viruses can choose between two lifestyles – they can be immediately selfish and demand to be copied NOW, or they can resort to deferred selfishness and take the form of an apparently benign and passive passenger, a silent unheard message, waiting patiently to make its demands later. These smarter viruses are exemplified by a virus (bacteriophage) named lambda, that infects E. coli bacteria. This virus is a little package containing 50,000 letters of DNA. What was discovered by University of Wisconsin – Madison molecular biologist Esther Lederberg in the 1950s was that this virus is stealthy. It is able to be patient. When its host is healthy and happy, the phage lambda virus can look benign and friendly and gentle. It silently slips a single copy of its selfish message into the genetic instructions of the host, but it stays silent and…waits. Every time the host makes a copy of itself, which, for E. coli bacteria, can be a LOT of times, the selfish message of the virus just gets copied too... passively. The selfish virus rides along as a silent idea being copied with zero effort. But unlike the current Coronavirus, this smart and selfish lambda machine has the ability to choose, to switch, depending on which choice will leave more copies of itself. In this brutally simple calculus, evolution has rewarded phage lambda for being able to switch from a benign lifestyle to a brutal takeover resulting in a rapid revelation of the “MAKE COPIES OF ME!” demand. Pathetically, the cue for this switch is evidence that the host bacterium is in danger or in trouble, risking the passive viral lifestyle. When the switch is thrown, the virus turns on, activates the full force of the “MAKE COPIES OF ME!” demand, and, in so doing, enslaves the dying host to fabricate from its own guts dozens of copies of the virus. Lambda leaves the dying carcass of the bacterial host in a sturdy armor carrier shaped like a syringe…looking for an unsuspecting host to be injected with the same selfish message – a message built from the juices and machinery of the previous unsuspecting host. Amazingly, a similar lifestyle with clever switching capability occurs in a famous virus that infects people. It is called HIV, and it hides quietly in the cellular police of the human immune system, finally demanding “MAKE COPIES OF ME!” when the police are activated, sadly disabling the body’s enforcement functions just when they are needed most. That’s why the “I” of HIV stands for immunodeficiency.


Viruses are vulnerable to rapid extinction. This fact applies to the present Coronavirus and it is relevant to pandemics like that currently affecting our planet, and threatening lethal consequences for a few percent of those infected. The reality is that viruses can go extinct quickly. The present Coronavirus pandemic likely started when a single Coronavirus with a random spelling error in its genetic message found itself able to sneak from a wild animal to a human, perhaps in a street market in Wuhan, China. This Coronavirus pandemic is ominous, but the reality is that the world pandemic could be ended in 14 days with this Coronavirus being driven to extinction in that time. Think of the lives saved and the money saved and the stock market investments saved, and the panic saved, and the toilet paper liberated. Coronavirus extinction in 14 days?  How? It is simple. Assuming that rare human-adapted Coronaviruses do not enter the human population from animals very often, the current Coronaviruses demanding “MAKE COPIES OF ME!” are actually surprisingly vulnerable. Their only fleeting existence comes between the time when they sneak themselves into a new uninfected person to demand that the copying begins, and the few days later when the human host’s powerful immune system recognizes the ploy and shuts down every single virus. And that is exactly what human immune systems do in almost every case. They extinguish the virus. Our amazing immune systems also remember the selfish Coronavirus and prevent it from even thinking about infecting us again. Tragically, a few percent of infected individuals will die from respiratory complications of the virus before they can mount an immune response. However, even in these tragic cases, the virus dies with the victim. Coronaviruses are doomed by both of those scenarios. For all the fear they inspire, Coronaviruses are weak and poorly adapted to life outside their human hosts. Within a few hours, or at most a few days, Coronavirus particles die on surfaces. They are easy to kill with soap and disinfectants. The selfish viral message really only lives on in the act of infecting an uninfected person. If a virus of this kind is kept from jumping to a new host for 14 days it will either die harmlessly on a surface, die harmlessly by the work of the immune system, or, sadly, die harmfully while taking the life of the rare immunocompromised host. All three fates have the same outcome – the virus dies. This Coronavirus lives out its selfishness only in the act of transmission. Fourteen days without viral transmission between humans anywhere on earth and this Coronavirus goes extinct. Unlike the lambda virus or HIV, this Coronavirus doesn’t seem to know how to disguise its selfishness.

14 days without jumping to a new host anywhere on the planet and the “MAKE COPIES OF ME!” demand of this Coronavirus – just the latest in a long line of selfish viral messages – will go unheard…forever.

Tuesday, January 14, 2020

Questions asked of a molecular biologist


In the fall of 2019 I received an invitation to address the board of directors for a well-known national religious organization. Knowing that the group was largely made up of non-scientists, I accepted the invitation and presented a talk titled “Questions asked of a molecular biologist.”  The talk was followed by a time for questions and discussion. The presentation was not recorded, but I provide a synopsis here.



It is a special pleasure to be able to speak to you today. I am aware of the impressive speakers that have addressed this group, and it is an honor to be counted among them.

My goal as a professor of molecular biology and as a Christian believer, is not to make you comfortable, but to make you think.

Thank you for the work that you do. I pray that my words today will be clear and will magnify our view of God. Indeed, I am convinced that our view of God always needs magnification.


I’ve chosen this topic for my remarks today – Questions asked of a molecular biologist. I chose this topic because of what I found to be an unexpected and remarkable experience this past year. It was the opportunity to speak openly and honestly with a group of biomedical science graduate students who are spiritual seekers from many different backgrounds. Two of the students originally approached me as a faculty member and dean, knowing of my Christian faith even as I lead an NIH-funded molecular biology research lab and am married with two adult children. One of the seeking students had faced a difficult year, confronted by the deaths of loved ones. She and her colleague met me on the sidewalk one afternoon.

“Would you ever be willing to sit down and talk about whether there is more to life beyond the experiments we do and the data we collect?”

My answer was simple.

“Yes” I said.

“The only rule of discussion would be that I participate as another voice in the circle – not as teacher or professor or dean. I’ll present my path as a seeker, and explain my Christian faith, but then listen as you speak and share and ask questions. Maybe we can discover some common questions that lead you to wonder about whether there is more.”

The two students immediately agreed, and quickly identified three more students to participate. These were extremely intelligent students from across the globe, all at my institution for PhD training in biomedical sciences. These were students from very different backgrounds. Most had been raised in faith traditions but had become seekers because of doubt or the disconnection between the teachings of their faiths and the realities and questions of their professional and personal lives. The students represented Hindu, Muslim, Roman Catholic, Evangelical Christian, and agnostic backgrounds. All agreed to meet monthly for an hour over almost a year. The discussion topics emerged spontaneously after each meeting and different students led different discussions. Often the leader of the month would post one or more readings to spur reflection or discussion before each session.



I found that many of the topics reflected ideas and questions related to material I had already posted at my blog, so I commonly cross-referenced one of my essays as I provided resources for reflection. If these kinds of topics intrigue you, I refer you to my blog as well. In my blog I treat thoughts at the intersection of science, family, and faith. For example, if you are curious why this professional baseball player is holding a praying mantis on a baseball, and what that has to do with the relationship between science and faith, you can find my discussion of the topic here.

Although our seeking exploration covered more than a dozen topics, I have chosen to share today four of the questions that struck me as particularly interesting. These are topics where young scientists are rightfully curious, and problems that skeptical trainees must confront to make sense of a world where their personal lives and experiences are balanced with professional lives involving measurements and the reproducibility of experiments, and ideas touching on the invisibly small molecular machines of life.


As background, this is my church home, Autumn Ridge Church in Rochester, Minnesota. I have been privileged to have volunteer leadership opportunities in this large and diverse Christian congregation. I continue to enjoy serving as a musician and I produce an Arts Series that for 13 seasons has brought two concerts with world-class performers to Southeast Minnesota each year.

I was raised in a church-going family that was part of a mainline denomination, but even after baptism and first communion and confirmation, I had never come to terms personally with the central claims of Christianity – that I constantly fail to live up to ethical standards of my own, let alone those of a holy and loving God, and that this God has paid a dear price to rescue me forever from my hopeless struggle, not because I am good, but because he is good. When I was 17 I finally understood personally the central proposition of Christianity and made my decision to dedicate my life to God in thanks for the sacrifice of Jesus Christ on the cross for me. This faith decision has changed everything about how I understand the world and my place in it.

I am also a PhD molecular biologist. My BS and PhD degrees are from the University of Wisconsin – Madison, and I did postdoctoral work at the California Institute of Technology before beginning my career as a professor of biochemistry and molecular biology. I have had my current research and teaching position for 25 years.


This photo shows what I particularly love about my job – the chance to work with brilliant young scientists from all over the world. Perhaps it is not appreciated, but the majority of cutting-edge molecular biology that is done to address the unknowns of how life works is done by young apprentice scientists in their 20s. When I began my career, I was just a few years older than my student apprentices. Now they are slightly younger than my own adult children.

Working with extremely intelligent, skeptical, and productive students is a prescription for staying young. Their lives are turbulent and exciting – first partners, first jobs, first pets, first major failures and self-doubts, first major successes, first divorces, the first illnesses and deaths of family members, first true loneliness, first long distances from home, first doubts about career goals.

It is exciting to be a mentor to such students.

And they find themselves asking ‘why’ questions that are beyond the reach of the experimental science they do all day and many nights. ‘Why’ questions are every bit as important as ‘how’ questions, but science is not designed or equipped to answer ‘why’ questions. It is the ‘why’ questions that bring tearful students to my office to share their vulnerabilities and doubts and fears and shame with me, not infrequently. At these ‘why’ question times I have come to find it a privilege to listen and counsel and advise, even as the tears can be disarming. I ask myself ‘how would I want a professional colleague to treat one of my adult daughters at a stressful time such as this?’

It was in this context that I agreed to participate in a discussion of hard questions asked by very smart, seeking students. In many ways the student-requested discussion was something I had always hoped to do, and perhaps something I will do again.

I think what made me especially comfortable with it was that I wasn’t my idea.

So here are four of our group questions that I’ve chosen to share today.




Let’s begin with the first. “Are living things machines?”

In a sense, the answer is simple, and we know that it is “yes,” especially because of the work of Vesalius and van Calcar, as shown in this beautiful rendering from 1543. All living things are flesh and bone, bark and root at the macroscopic level, built from levers and pumps, sinews, meat and blood, tissue. Recognition of our own mechanistic character by dissection was one of the pillars of the enlightenment. Vesalius, da Vinci, Harvey all made seminal contributions.

But I’m here to answer the question with a more fundamental ‘yes’ than Vesalius or da Vinci or Harvey could have given. I’m here to affirm that living things, all of us, are digital machines all the way down to the nano level.



In fact, this is the realm of nanomachinery where I work. These nanomachines are millionths of inches small, invisible, but still absolutely mechanistic. The DNA code molecule shown in this picture is a mechanical ladder where the segment of rungs shown here is a millionth of an inch long, but the three billion rungs of ladder code in each human cell add up to 6 feet of invisibly thin double helix, packed with digital instructions encoded as a linear hard drive – two copies of every inherited instruction, one from mom, one from dad, needed to make another entire human identical to us.

Indeed, we are machinery all the way down to the nanodevices that form our cells.



The idea that DNA carries all the coded recipes for all of the nanomachines of life has always delighted and fascinated me. That’s why I still have this 6-foot-tall poster on the wall outside my office at work. It shows the map of the coded blueprint information, the recipe locations, for the 20,000+ recipes for all the nanomachines needed to make a human cell. The recipes have all been sequenced now – we know the code, so we can read this book of life and labs like mine study how the code is organized, how only some recipes are used at any given time, and what goes wrong when recipes have errors or are read at the wrong time and place in cells.

If we zoom in on this map, we start to see the locations of individual recipes, written into stretches of thousands of rungs of DNA ladder code, all coiled and folded and packed into volumes like a huge, complicated cookbook of recipes, organized in unexpected and perplexing ways.


We, and all living things, are machines all the way down to the nano scale. Here is an example of our digital code, written with the letters G,A,T,C to substitute for the chemical rung structures of DNA.


The code is read out by a copying machine and then a translation machine so the string of DNA is first rendered as an RNA copy, but then interpreted by translation so each group of three original DNA letters corresponds to one ‘bead’ on an eventual string of amino acid beads, that will fold into the functional protein nanomachines of life. These invisibly small proteins become the meat and bone and goo of living things.

How cool that scientists before us figured out this genetic code! How absolutely cool that all living things share the same code – there is just one universal digital language shared by everything that is alive – and we can read it! We scientists can copy and paste digital recipes and rewire cells to do new and different things – all because we are machines all the way down to the nano scale, and machines built from coded instructions, and coded instructions of just a single language for all living things.  In this example, the recipe code starts at the letters “ATG” and ends at the letters “TAA” with each triplet between indicating a different one of the 20 possible amino acid ‘beads’ forming this string that folds automatically to form this machine that we study in our lab.

This particular machine shown in red is part of a larger machine. We study it because when it is broken or missing, cells can grow out of control and become cancerous tumors.

Now here is something incredibly cool. Because we can read the genetic recipes written in the DNA of different living things, we can compare these recipes! In fact, it soon became clear that all living things are built from similar recipes, and the same kinds of nanomachines are doing their things in all of us, from humans to other animals, plants, bacteria…everything.

Here I have lined up the genetic recipes for one of the machines my lab studies in humans. The recipes for this machine are shown for bacteria, yeast, humans, and pigs. The recipes are shown with 20 different letters to represent the 20 different amino acids coded by the sequential triplets of G,A,T,C DNA letters I showed earlier. If we look at the code sequences for this nanomachine we quickly realized that the codes look similar! We can recognize the patterns and in some places the codes for this machine are identical in bacteria and humans! Where the codes aren’t identical, they are often similar. This machine is quite similar, even interchangeable, across many living things.
Not only are living things machines, but the digital codes in living things can be compared.

This was a HUGE discovery, because it means that we don’t have to just compare how living things look on the outside, we can actually read the instruction blueprint for each kind of living thing and compare the blueprints.

Scientists quickly came to terms with the similarities between living things:



This is where I want to share a very important point. Without any ax to grind, scientists began comparing the digital codes in living things. Scientists did something kind of obvious – they used the kinds of comparison tools used to compare the familiar codes that we humans call languages.

Few people doubt that languages are related, and that languages have descended from common ancestors. We see this in the similarities of certain languages, and we can recognize the sounds of words in other languages descended from common ancestors.

In fact, languages evolve. They change over time. As groups of people become separated, their languages drift and become different enough that different language groups can no longer communicate.

Here is a common tree diagram depicting the relationship between languages. The common ancestor languages can be deduced. I’ve never heard anyone claim that all languages were created at once in their present forms. It is self-evident from the codes that languages descended from common ancestors over long times.


Charles Darwin studied the macroscopic external appearance of plants and animals and deduced common ancestry, proposing an evolutionary theory for the relationship between all living things. Darwin did this based only on what he saw, kind of like trying to propose relationships between languages based only on how they sound.

How amazing was it then when, more than a century later, scientists realized they could compare the DNA codes inside of living things. This is like comparing languages as written codes rather than just by listening to the sounds of the words.

What became instantly clear is shown here. The same tools that show relationships between languages through common ancestors forming a language ‘tree’ revealed an absolutely analogous ‘tree of life.’ The best and most obvious explanation for this tree is exactly the same explanation as for the language tree – living things have evolved over time from common ancestors.

This wasn’t an evil scheme to destroy religious faith – it was simply the realization that Darwin’s insight based on appearances had been shown to be correct by reading the digital codes built into every living thing.

Amazing.



So are living things machines?  Yes. From what we can see right down to the nanoscale, they are all machinery – we are all machinery. And the digital coding of life makes it absolutely obvious that all living things are related to each other – and since the relationship looks just like the relationship between languages that have evolved from each other over long periods of time with change and separation, evolution over a long period of time is the obvious logical conclusion of this discovery that living things are machines based on digital code.


This "yes" conclusion prompted an obvious question in our discussion group. If living things are material, and the enlightenment moved us away from animism to a mechanistic view of life, is there any room left for the concept of a soul – an aspect of life that is beyond the mechanical – an aspect that might commune with a higher power, a creator if there is one – an aspect of life that lies on the ‘why’ dimension – an aspect of life that might transcend the mechanical and outlive the machinery?

What is a soul?

What a great question. I have blogged about this question in the past, so we discussed a possible direction for thinking about the soul. My argument has been based on the concept of emergent properties – properties of large and complex systems that are not readily explained by the properties of the component parts.


My analogy relates to the concept of ant colony behavior that isn’t predictable by studying individual ants. Ants are cool, but…


Ant colonies do lots of things that individual ants do not. These colonial behaviors are kinds of emergent properties observed only when hundreds or thousands of ants work together and we start to realize that there is a kind of ant colony “organism” that we only understand when we grasp that we can't understand the purpose of an individual ant, its ‘why,’ until we see it in context.


There is a possible analogy that gets us to the soul. It is the analogy between ant/colony and neuron/brain. It is entirely plausible that the 100 billion neuron cells of the human brain are the ants and the brain is the colony, replete with emergent properties unpredicted by the characteristics of neurons. These are properties like self-awareness, consciousness, selflessness, love, and the longing for connection to a purpose and the sensed yearning for the love of a creator.

I think this is such an interesting idea.

And it has fascinating implications that our group discussed.

First, if the soul is an emergent property of a complex brain, we must confront the fact that humans are not the only animals with complex brains. Are all creatures machines, but only humans have brains large enough to spawn emergent souls that are loved by a creator God and can commune with that God beyond this life? What if the different brains of all kinds of creatures generate different kinds of souls that are loved and find transcendence with such a God?

Wow.

Second, if the soul is an emergent property of a complex brain, what happens when that brain dies? An ant colony has no emergent properties when all individual ants are dead. There is no immortal emergent property of an ant colony except perhaps our memory that such a colony once existed. What of a soul that is an emergent property of a living brain? When the neurons cease to function, what of that soul? Here we discussed the notion of reincarnation, or in Christian terms, resurrection. If the soul is an emergent property of a complex brain, the soul is immortal if that physical brain can somehow be made immortal by resurrection – re-integration – recreation. If that brain is physically rebuilt in a manner that is timeless, a timeless soul re-emerges.


So, though by no means a trivial idea, the fact that living things are machines does not kill the idea that a transcendent soul could emerge from a complex mechanical brain. Such a soul is a way to understand the aspects of human life whose aesthetics provide ‘why’ answers in a mechanical universe that otherwise lacks them. As I have discussed in a previous post the idea that answers to ‘why’ questions are totally fair and desirable even though such answers are off limits for experimental science.

Our discussion group was made up of students trained in molecular biology, though each was studying different fields and questions. The group did find itself discussing the ethics of application of technology to the mechanism of living things. Since living things are machines, and since we increasingly understand that machinery, we are learning to engineer it. In some ways this is the story of medicine, and in some ways it is also the ancient story of selective breeding. The latter is just genetic engineering done in slow motion and without mechanistic insight.

But what of newer and faster techniques that allow us to engineer the digital blueprints present in the DNA of all living cells? As we change this blueprint information, we change the character of the cell. As that cell divides, we have the potential to change the character of the resulting organism – or even to make new kinds of organisms. Is this something to worry about?

The reason this is on our minds is the discovery and optimization of a wonderful and unexpected technology found buried within the deep inner workings of bacteria. This is an ideal example of a principle that I try to communicate to the lay public every chance I can – the revolutionary discoveries that change medicine for humans almost exclusively come from studies driven by curious scientists simply interested in how living things work, very often without any obvious connection to human health. This is one of the reasons why it is so important to promote and support the work of curious scientists – we simply don’t know what is going to turn out to be important for human medicine.

This is also exactly the case for the discovery of the CRISPR/Cas9 machinery hidden in bacteria. 


We simply had no idea that bacteria carry their own immune systems, helping them fight off their own parasites!

Who knew?? We think of bacteria being the parasites, but they themselves have been in an ancient battle with their own parasitic viruses (called bacteriophages) and dangerous parasitic mobile DNA molecules.

The name of the CRISPR system (an acronym standing for clustered regularly interspaced short palindromic repeats) illustrates the accidental way in which the system was discovered. The molecular nanomachinery that performs the immune functions was not discovered first. Rather, it was peculiar features of the genetic blueprint instructions for CRISPR in the bacterial DNA that caught the attention of DNA sequencing bacteriologists before they had the slightest ideas what was encoded by these DNA patterns. Remarkably, bacteria with CRISPR systems preserve a digital record of samples of the DNA codes of invading parasites so this library of code specimens is ready in the DNA blueprint of the bacterium itself, allowing every piece of DNA to be checked against this library, for safety.

Amazing? It is like a facial recognition system to destroy anyone depicted on a ’10 most wanted’ poster.

To appreciate this natural and unexpected bacterial technology and how it has been re-engineered by clever scientists, consider another analogy that I used in our group’s discussion of the ethics of CRISPR/Cas9. This analogy is a simple zipper.


The double-stranded DNA in cells is a molecular ladder twisted into a spiral, and it is in some ways like a zipper. The analogy is not perfect, but it is surprisingly good. We just have to remember that unlike the identical teeth in the zippers in our clothes, DNA zipper teeth come in 4 shapes, and the DNA zipper can’t zip unless the teeth match in a complementary way – DNA is a smart zipper.


Amazingly, the CRISPR system is like the single red zipper strand shown here without a partner. Let’s imagine that in this room full of people wearing clothes with zippers, each person’s zipper is slightly different as far as the sequence of the zipper teeth. If one of us is a dangerous criminal, how might we be detected? How about a zipper ID test? Let’s say we have a record of the order of teeth on one section of the criminal’s zipper, and it is available as this single red probe zipper. One way to find the criminal is to allow this single red probe zipper to test for matches with all the zippers on the clothes of the people in this room.

Seems crazy, but that is exactly how the CRISPR system works.

The CRISPR system has a zipper tab that can start probing almost anywhere along any zipper. Prying into the target zipper, it inserts its red single zipper and tests for a match to the potential criminal sequence by zipping. 

Most zipper teeth won’t match and the CRISPR system then disengages harmlessly. However, if a perfect match is found all the way along the teeth of the red single probe zipper, the fully-zipped product triggers a clever machine that physically cuts the target zipper so it can no longer close.



[Reflect for a moment on the implication in the analogy for the criminal in this room if the recognized and destroyed zipper is the one that keeps the criminal’s pants closed.]



Here is a molecular view of the actual CRISPR/Cas9 machinery, also less than a millionth of an inch in size. I colored it so the red single zipper is red, and the grey target zipper whose tooth order is being checked is grey. In this picture, the green stuff is the protein that acts as both the zipper tab that is inserted in the target zipper to do the checking, and the scissors that are activated if a perfect match is found.

Our discussion group, being made up of molecular biologists, was somewhat familiar with this molecular machine, so we reviewed it as well as its unlikely discovery within bacteria, and its subsequent engineering. This engineering means that the little machines can now be engineered with whatever red single zipper tooth sequence we want, so the machines will scan and cut target DNA zippers only where we wish.

Cutting a target zipper DNA in a living cell has the interesting effect of triggering the cell to undertake a haphazard repair attempt that results in a repaired zipper with a kind of scar that has a slightly different sequence of teeth than the original, often destroying the meaning of the code. These errors can destroy the genetic recipe encoded by the target zipper sequence, allowing scientists to edit (crudely for now) the recipe list.

One of the big challenges is getting the red single zipper inside of cells where it can do its job. That’s one of the things we work on in our lab, but that is also a different story…

So, the question our group asked was whether we should be alarmed by the availability of this CRISPR technology, stolen from bacteria, and engineered to alter gene recipes in any organism, including humans.

The group reflected on the fact that this kind of gene editing might be applied in two general ways.


If the gene edit is made in a normal body cell (a “somatic” cell) of an organism such as a human patient, the change stays in that patient and is not passed along to offspring.


If, however, doctors or scientists figure out how to make the gene change in one of the eggs or sperm ( the ‘germ cells’) of a human patient, their DNA is then included in the new fertilized embryo to create the genetic recipes for the baby. In fact, every single one of the trillions of cells in the resulting baby would inherit the same gene change made by CRISPR in the egg or sperm. Such technology has powerful implications that have already triggered ill-considered attempts to alter eggs so the resulting babies have a designed gene change in every cell. These changes would then be inherited by their offspring, and the human race altered a little bit by the effort.

Such “germline” gene editing is currently illegal, and our group agreed that it is premature to consider the idea of “medicine” that alters families now and in perpetuity. We’re just not smart enough to understand the implications of this kind of medicine.

On the other hand, editing DNA within the somatic cells of an individual patient is not nearly as ominous, as the effects are limited to that individual.



We concluded that we should not be alarmed by the availability of CRISPR-Cas9 gene editing technology. It is a tool, neither good nor bad. We should explain the tool to the public, and help guide ethical use of the tool. For now, that means limiting its use to the editing of somatic cells where it may be of use as a new kind of precision medicine in some patients.

This then brings us to a fourth discussion topic that I found particularly interesting. 



The students asked why so many Christians are so frightened by the ideas of an ancient earth and evolutionary origins. As scientists, we wanted to appreciate the source of these fears and concerns in order to improve our dialog with Christian people who feel threatened by these very important scientific concepts. We also wanted to explore whether there is something about Christianity that is inconsistent with the findings of science.

Are Christianity and science complementary ways of discovering and understanding the same truth, or are they inconsistent?


Those familiar with my blog know that I’ve posted several things about this issue before – here, here, here, and this video.

As we discussed with our discussion group, I believe the central issue comes down to this illustration and how we choose to understand the written documents of Judaism and Christianity, what we call the Old and New Testaments of the Bible. Christians derive their understanding of God from these documents, and Evangelical Christians believe that the documents are worth studying. The question is ‘in what sense are these documents true?’ Some Christians see the biblical documents as if they were a textbook, all written in one coherent format, as if by one author, all for one purpose. I show here one of my favorite textbooks, Richard Feynman’s Lectures on Physics, as an example. Textbooks are one kind of literature, and we understand them by studying them in a certain way.

I have argued that the Bible is not a textbook. It is much more interesting than that. The Bible is a scrapbook. Scrapbooks (at least those like my own scrapbook, shown here) are full of mysteries and surprises and puzzles, contradictions, delights.

The Bible is a scrapbook and it does not reveal many ‘how’s (as it would if it were a textbook), but it does reveal many ‘why’s. This makes it a particularly unique and important collection of documents reflecting the contributions of dozens of authors over centuries of time.

So, part of the fear of some Christians about scientific evidence for an ancient earth and evolutionary origins can be traced to the desire to read and understand the Bible as a textbook.

We discussed another likely contributor to discomfort about an ancient earth and evolutionary origins – the truth of these concepts tends to reduce the special importance of humans.

This is a problem because we like to be especially important.


I like this quote from pastor Rick Warren. Rick makes the point that we like to think of the universe from the reference frame of…us. The Bible meets us in this reference frame, but that doesn’t mean that it is the ultimate reference frame – it is simply the only reference frame our tiny minds can comprehend.

It hasn’t taken long for modern instruments descended from Galileo’s original telescope to remind us that our place in the universe is insignificant, as is the amount of time we have been living here.

Sobering but true.

Our discussion group thus decided that another reason some chafe against an ancient earth and evolutionary origins is that we find ourselves no longer the main event, the stars of the show. We are told in the Bible that we humans are specially loved and that have been purchased by God through an expensive and mysterious sacrifice.

But this doesn’t mean that we are unique. It doesn’t mean that God has no other love stories in other places, times, or universes. 

This image of earth from beyond Saturn might please Galileo, who was the first to see moons circling Jupiter, reminding us that the earth is not the center of everything.




In fact, the earth is the center of very little.


As I have posted, our place in the universe is unimaginably small. That a powerful and creative God is at all mindful of us is the miracle. The size of our planet relative to the size of known universe is on the same order as the size of a grain of sand relative to the size of the entire planet earth. On that massive scale the single sand grain is too small to matter – isn’t it?

Our group discussed my post that we humans may dislike the idea of evolutionary origins because it destroys the sense that human history is a significant part of the history of the universe.



It isn’t. The 10,000 years of recorded human civilization are to the age of the universe as the last two seconds of time are to the previous month. Inconsequential. Insignificant.

In the world we are discovering through science, the space and time of humanity lose their prime status. Rather than being obvious that a loving God must attend to us, it becomes unfathomably remarkable that we merit the least notice in the blink of time that we have occupied this dark corner of what may be just one universe of a multiverse.

No wonder some are discomforted by the ideas of an ancient earth and evolutionary origins. These ideas force us to rethink the Bible as textbook, requiring more homework to unpack the purpose of the biblical scrapbook. These ideas also force us to confront our insignificance.

Apparently the only reason our human story is important is because God says it is.

Our group discussed how these are not particularly new ideas, but they have been rediscovered over and over in history. This is one of the great reasons to study history and literature – to realize that we may be re-fighting intellectual battles that were already won by thinkers like Augustine and Galileo centuries ago. In his The Language of God, molecular biologist Francis Collins calls these the Lessons of Galileo.




I smile audaciously to then contribute my own quotation along the same line, and it sums up what our discussion group concluded in considering an ancient earth and evolutionary origins.




So, we come to the conclusion of this story of a remarkable group of seeking students and their willingness to ask important questions of a molecular biologist.


They knew that I have lived my live as a professional scientist and as a person of faith. They wanted some insight into how that combination can coexist. By the end of our sessions together, I had shared my own path to Christian faith, and I had tried to be honest and vulnerable about the feelings of guilt and loneliness that led me to investigate, and eventually accept, the claims of Jesus Christ.

We then talked about more than a dozen topics, including the four summarized here.

Thank you so much for your attention. Let’s have some discussion!

1.14.20

A reader comments:

I enjoyed reading your presentation - rigorous discussion around very complex topics. I am not a young earth proponent, but I do have one question: What is the difference between the DNA building blocks evolving over millions of years, like languages, into different species versus God using those building blocks to design life in more real time? Does the DNA profile look the same either way? Is the only difference the amount of time God used to complete the task (allowing / guiding macro evolution vs. a more "fast path" or micro evolution approach)?

Response:

Great question.

I use the language analogy to get us thinking. The biblical story of Babel (Genesis 11:1-9) might suggest that God created all the different languages at once by confusing the speakers of one original language with a single act. That’s what we would deduce if the Bible is a textbook. If the Bible is a scrapbook that includes stories and mythology meant to help explain things that are hard to explain (like different languages), then we are open to the possibility that the real origin of languages is different from the Babel story, or perhaps better stated, that the Babel story doesn’t likely explain the different languages we experience today. By studying the languages of today, we see that they are related in a way that points to common ancestry, and we can make diagrams that illustrate the likely family tree. As we watch language evolution we see that it is slow. It therefore seems more reasonable to explain the family tree of languages as being the result of a slow process of evolution, based on the principle that it is simplest to assume that processes currently observed are generally similar to processes that took place in the past. That means language evolution has been taking place over many thousands of years. Could God have created all languages in their current form very quickly, and then just created the appearance of a family tree of relationships because that is beautiful?  Sure. God can do almost anything except be untrue to himself. It is just easier to understand languages as having arisen by gradual processes. The only reason not to believe that is if we insist that the Babel story is taken as a textbook account and applied universally to all languages.

So, the same goes for the genetic relationships between organisms. Could God have quickly created all the kinds of organisms using a process that created the appearance of the genetic family tree that we see by gene sequencing, including genetic parasites and broken genes? Of course he could have. He can do almost anything. However, based on what we see going on now, and processes and the measured pace of genetic changes, and based on the assumption that current processes are generally a reasonable model for past processes (the simplest assumption of science where miracles aren’t invoked), the time to build the current genetic tree of life would be thousands of millions of years. This doesn’t mean that remarkable things like asteroid impacts haven’t occurred in earth history, so unusual events are allowed. My argument is that the simplest explanation for the tree of life, as for the tree of languages, is a long, slow process that appears random even if it is, in fact guided by God. Simplest explanations win in science. The only reason to invoke the hand of God in a sudden process that just imitates the slow process is insistence on understanding the Bible as if it were a textbook.

I’m quite convinced that the writers of the Bible never claim that it is a textbook (!), or that it should be understood as a homogeneous and uniform document containing a single style of literature. That’s why it doesn’t bother me at all to choose the simpler explanation that is more consistent with what we observe with our eyes and experiments, rather than reverting to seeing the world through the lens of a textbook reading of the Bible.

After all, it was insistence on a textbook reading of the Bible that suggested a geocentric universe, and that got Galileo in trouble when he found moons orbiting Jupiter rather than earth. My argument is that we long-ago learned that the textbook view of the Bible is not particularly valuable in astronomy and cosmology. We all pretty much understand that now.

It is taking longer to realize that the same is true for languages…and biology ☺.

The reader comments again:

That is a very helpful explanation, and I don't necessarily disagree with it.  I am not convinced, however, that just because one thinks there was miraculous intervention (i.e God sped up the process from what we observe today) it means that one reads the Bible as a textbook. I don't make that connection. I think the overwhelming scrapbook story of Scripture is that God intervened.   He certainly intervened in the incarnation. He could have also intervened in creation - and in fact did at some point in the process. "In the beginning God (vs. chance) created the heavens and the earth."  It seems to me we can have differing views of how he created and over what period of time without thinking of Scripture as a textbook.   Thoughts?

Response:

Yup. Good thoughts.

I would just make some comments about the concept of God “intervening.”  Though it is debated by theologians, my personal conviction is that God exists outside of time, and created time for his purposes without needing to exist within it. This is analogous to a playwright or composer creating an artistic product in the dimensions of her own existence. While the actual performance of the piece and its characters are trapped in time and space, the creator is not. Because we are creatures of the time dimension (akin to characters in the play), we have no real ability to fathom what the existence of the playwright (outside of time) is like. We are trapped in time and can only think about timelessness by analogy. My sense that God is timeless is based on hints from the Bible, and my instinct that God is master of everything, so of time as well. I could be wrong.

The reason that prior paragraph matters is that, if it is true, it means that God has never ‘intervened’ in the sense of inserting himself into a place or plot where he wasn’t previously involved. It’s like saying that the playwright became involved in her play only here and there. That doesn’t make any sense because the playwright is responsible for the entire play from conception to crafting of plot to conclusion. The playwright might choose to write herself into the play as a character here and there, so both audience and other characters would get to know her character, and she might even create plot lines where her actions in time have dramatic and real consequences for the other characters in the play. I would not say that this would be intervention. She wrote the whole play and just chose to enter the plot as a character here or there. The whole play was written knowing of those plot twists.

So I see God as having written into the fabric of time and space and what we perceive as random chance the plot and the story, right from what we see as the start, right through to what we will see as the end. We can’t conceive it because we are creatures of time. He has accomplished this to allow for what we perceive to be free will and he knew the outcome before setting the story in motion. Indeed, that is the most encouraging thing about this universe – that God told/is telling/will tell a beautiful story well worth telling, though we see it incompletely from the perspective of time.

Now as to God being able to manipulate time for his purposes, obviously from my comments above, he can do this if it suits him. I am more concerned in my advocacy for science and Christianity with the issue of credibility. This was the point of the slide with the quote from Augustine in my talk. If we stubbornly cling to certain textbook interpretations of biblical treatments of science and cosmology and astronomy and biology and other areas that the ancient authors could not address with any authority or insight, we risk discrediting ourselves as not having a message worth hearing on matters of faith and salvation. The world is suspicious that they will need to deny the implications of objective observation if they want to accept the Gospel. They do not. I think the “foolishness” of the message of the cross for those who are perishing (Paul’s first letter to the church at Corinth, 1:18) has nothing to do with Christians needing to ignore scientific evidence staring them in the face, it has to do with the paradox of losing one’s life to gain it.

By wrapping Christianity in an anti-intellectual package, we create an unnecessary obstacle, particularly in a city like ours. I think this is one of the central discussions for Christian leaders here over the coming years.

I am about removing obstacles.